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i'm an asshole, and i never post

2007-05-23T17:07:57Z

but i made an epromise. so i will follow through. ;)

also actual blog/journal

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Movie:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

it can't all be perfect.

2006-08-07T20:30:18Z

shit weekend, for the most part.

i got pretty mad at tim friday. he bailed on my friends again. so next time he makes a commitment for me, i'm bailing on him. it sounds really petty but it'll make me feel better and it may force me to talk about it. it just seems like he expects me to do everything with his friends and when it comes to mine, he'll come if he feels like it. friday, it was corrin's birthday (the girl who got us together, mind you) and suddenly he was like "i'm wiped, i'm not coming to corrin's birthday". so i was a little put off, but he was still going to let me take his car because my window still isn't fixed. and then he gets home from work, gets a call from josh and decides to go out to dinner wiht josh and melissa, sharing two pitchers along the way.

what.
the.
fuck.

too wiped out to go to a casino i would have begged out of at 11:30, but well enough to drink a pitcher and a half with josh and melissa at a restaurant? greeeeat. makes me feel great that while i'm runnign around trying to get all my obligations in (visiting grandma, working, getting hair dyed, and making sure i'm not bailing on my friend for her birthday) he's getting trashed wiht his friends when he just told me he was too tired to see mine.

then, just to illustrate what a week i had, my grandmother's been in the hospital for the past week, and steadily getting worse. we put her in a hospice and she passed away saturday evening. so there's that.

spent most of the rest of the weekend wiht family or watching sex and the city and cuddling my new kitten. it wasn't as hard as it could have been. we knew she was dying, and nearly everyone visited. for as afraid of death as she was, she went easily. she waited until my aunt came to see her, and five minutes later, she was gone. the death process is pretty amazing like that. people really know what htey're doing if they're given enough time. she was in a great hospice, too. everything was so appropriate. i'm going to miss her.

now i'm just tired. i spent the next day with my mom at artsy fartsy, a little art group one of my mom's friends puts on. we learned how to marble fabric and paper... actually it was really cool. we're going to do it again next month.

i think i'm goig to take tomorrow off. i thought id' be ok to work, but being here isn't working out so much. that's what they make bereavement days for, i guess.

the dress

2006-06-14T20:01:04Z

ah, the dress. the thing i am dreading the most. the end-all-be-all of every girls wedding dreams. the dress.

like everything in my wedding, i have big plans for the dress. there are non-negotiables (no bridey cupcake dress! no sequins! no thousands of buttons going down my back! no tulle unless it is artsy!) and crazy ideas (feathers!) and a heaping spoonfull of idon'tknowwhatthefuckiwant. oh, and the fear that nothing will look good on me. :X

with that all out of my system, i'd like to itemize some things that bug me about wedding dresses, en general.

they're so bridey!

i hate to sound like a bitch, but looking through wedding photographer websites and wedding websites and bridal magazines... they all look cookie cutter the-same. even then "edgy" "tattooed" girls are wearing white gowns with veils and white shoes etc. and i know it's the only one day you get to wear the white dress and be the center of attention and all that, but it doesn't make sense to me. i'm no virgin (sorry aunties, but i'm sure you were aware!) and i have no wish to portray myself as a chaste princess. that doesn't interest me - i wear colors in everyday life, they mean a lot to me. plus, i would like my dress to not say "cake topper". there are girls who can pull that off, but i think i'm wide enough as it is, thankyouverymuch.

crazy embellishments

this is not including my crazy feather idea. but the antiquey-sparkly-ornate wedding dresses scare the shit out of me! some of those dresses look like they were made by the ice queen. not the impression i want to give on the happiest day of my life. bodices, scratchy glass beads, sequins, bejewelling... all scary.

when i wear white i always spill my mocha

hazlenut mocha law states that i will spill on anything white that makes contact with my body. i already stated my opposition to white dresses, i'm just backing it up with some more scary facts.

i guess my biggest fear is that i won't look like myself on my wedding day. i'd love to look like me at my most stunning. which makes this hard because most of the time when i think i look my best is on a wednesday afternoon and my hair hasn't been brushed in two days and i'm wearing three-day-old jeans and a new hoodie.

i know my fears are unfounded. i've seen friends get married and they always look like them. and not only themselves, but themselves at their best. i am just scared that it isn't going to live up to all those crazy dreams and ideas i get daily.

for all your wedding information

2006-06-01T23:33:04Z

or, rather, mine.

bride zilla blog
rawr

so, yo

2006-05-04T18:59:52Z

i got engaged :)

rad!!!

awesome birthday beginnings

2006-02-12T10:38:36Z

so, today was rad. here are the events, as i remembered them unfolding.

woke up

played a round of tiger woods golf, and won

went to flower world with my mom (sooo domestic!)

bought $85 worth of flowers, and my mom gave me a $50 as a birthday present

bought planting soil and other flower accessories at the store

went home and potted plants, watching the sopranos

wayne's car broke down on his way to his first date, so i drove him to southcenter

bought shirts at old navy, while waiting for hope and sean to call me back

at checkout, hope calls and exclaims that i should come to her house because they were going to the casino

showed up at hope's and bullshitted for an hour before leaving for the casino

got into the casino on a punched license because my purse spilled in my car last week and i apparently didn't pick that up.

pulled out some money to play craps

played craps for at least forty five minutes on one shooter, and doubled my money (fuck yes!)

wayne calls and is out of his movie, but refuses to tell me about the date

pulling off the freeway, i smack a curb and get a flat tire

i show up to the movie theater and janee is still hanging out with wayne, GOOD SIGN!

we change the tire while making jokes and having fun (as much fun as one can have changing a flat)

drive home knowing i at least made enough money at craps to cover my new tire... so rad!

so it's been an eventful birthday thus far. it should only get better... karma is rad.

also this is interesting.

when you come it's like 1000 julys

2006-02-10T01:45:11Z

i love days like today. it's 52 degrees and sunny in seattle, i look like a modern version of a victorian woman (all rosy cheeks and big dark eyes, in romantic colors, drinking romantic drinks, accented in pink). i spent a good half hour on the phone wiht kelly, bought things i've been meaning to buy for the past month and a half... all i need now is my couch, but that won't happen until next week. is wear, i'll post photos.

but tonight, i expect, will be awesome. i need to get ahold of rick, evan, jessica, and joby to let them know i'm having birthday a la mob part deux. that's on sunday. wish me a happy mid-twenties!

loneliness is as loneliness does.

2006-01-18T20:03:18Z

i feel like such an ingrate sometimes. i have a wonderful, beautiful life. i bought a lovely condo, and am having no problem furnishing it to my taste, i have probably the best boyfriend in the whole entire world, a great loving dog, a family that loves and supports me... and yet sometimes i can't help but want all those pangs of loneliness, lovelessness, and harder times. maybe it's just that water tastes so much better when you just got out of the desert, but i miss talking to dan. and it's not that talking to tim is any different. it's better, in fact. we laugh a lot, can tell eachother our problems... but there's none of that desperate forbidden thing. it's addicting. knowing you can't have anything but words and empty promises from someone... but wanting it anyway. and the whole pretending you don't care and it doesn't affect you thing...

maybe i just need to hear some of those things i used to hear from him. the "i keep coming back to you". that whole "i'm the lowest common denominator" thing. it really was like being jfk's girlfriend. or maybe eva braun, i can't decide.

i know what needs to happen. i need to start working out again, get some of my vital fluids going. become passionate again. work some innuendo into my life. because what is sexier than innuendo?

maybe not forget that i was that broken little girl. and now i've evolved.

something like that.

at least i don't shake anymore.

2006-01-11T18:56:14Z

so, i got a bug up my ass and went looking on myspace for my first. it was easy enough to find him... he looks just about the same, more built than when i dated him... he has a hat on so i don't know if he still compulsively bleaches his hair to look more skater. on the upside, i didn't start shaking when i looked at his picture. i read through his profile and only snorted a few times. he's living in my old hangout, which is a little bit ironic, since when we dated, he lived in kent. but, his sister and her boyfriend, an old friend of mine, lived in shoreline... so it makes sense.
so i've decided to keep a favorites list of my exes, because i'm eternally curious about how they're doing, good or bad. i may wish them death or harm, but i'm still rather curious as to what they're doing. however, what i found when i was trying to do this is a- i either don't know their last names, so finding them in myspace is impossible, or b- they're already on my friends list. :X so, i guess i'm a better person than i thought. although, not knowing let's say, thirty percent of the people i've slept with's last names may put me in the "slut" category. and yet, i'm not ashamed of anything. it seems like men have such pedestrian names. kris, ben, josh, tim (x3?). come on parents! my son's name WILL be something more like Achilles and less like Johnathan. Cain maybe. Abel? Those are biblical names, too.
In other news, i'm desperate to catalogue my music collection... will someone please recomment me a good media tool to do that? I SERIOUSLY don't want to go through 20 gigs of music by hand. :P

oh my!

2005-12-30T10:26:22Z

merry christmas... late.

this christmas was a christmastravaganza! it started off in lovely california, with the jorgensen/koch clan. that was a great evening, and i have to remember to actually write thank yous. also thank you to rebecca, who i'm in LOVE with. we had a great time talking about everything from god to art to ... everything.

the rest of it is a blur, honestly. friday, saturday, sunday were all party days, as well as tuesday and wednesday. but i'm just here to tell you about a few things.

i want to start journalling more. i think i may come up with more things to say if i can do this. it was a lot easier when this was my modus communicado with my out of state friends... now life is more stable, most people are home (this doesn't include my best friend. who needs to be home. but that's for another time to discuss.)

i had a wonderful time today with hanna. she's leaving for norway for six months on tuesday, so monday night i'll be out getting drinks with her, everything else be damned! we found all the good sales today... i bought BOGO (buy one get one) eye shadow in eight different shades. at least six new books for about a dollar fifty a piece (at BARNES & NOBLE - all hard backs!) i found my new couch (i can't believe i just got that from google!). i haven't purchased the couch yet, but soon. soon.

the other reason i'm writing is because... well... i had a dream. something i wanted to keep on paper, because it fucked me up something interesting.

it was about dan.

i haven't talked about dan in SUCH a long time. i don't think about him unless i'm talking to people to try to help them through the same type situation... but every so often i'll dream about him. it's inevitable, he was such a big part of my life for years. he was the measure i held guys up to. and i still don't think taht's wrong. there was a lot of really good stuff there... or so i remember. but i digress. the dream.

in the dream, i was at an airfield. very vintage looking, a lot of dark velvety grays and such... vintage looking planes, it was quite gorgeous actually, except for the imminent fear that i was on an open airfield. there was a machine hooked up to my feet, at the ankles. it was lightweight, aluminum probably, with propellers. at first, it was stationary. dan was standing over me, with either a whip or a knife... i don't remember. but every time he hurt me, the machine on my feet would start up adn it would lift me, while i twisted. and it felt good to twist there, in the wind (cheesy? maybe.) and the more i squirmed, the higher i went. and the higher i was, the better it felt. the next day, i drove around listening to nada surf and feeling dazed and twenty again. dizzy. and last night, i came to bed at three, and woke tim up, and fucked him back to sleep. and once we both came, i finally felt back to normal.

yeah. strange.

the end of days

2005-10-13T20:06:39Z

no, not the rapture, you fuckers. there is no such thing.

the last days in auburn. i'm having mixed feelings. i'm bummed to not live with hope anymore. it's been so awesome having a sister at my fingertips. and i think living with her has made me more imaginative and funny. i love that.
i'm also SO STOKED to not live in auburn, because it's auburn. and nobody likes living there. it's not pretty, or interesting, or convenient. it costs me a hundred dollars a month to commute to work. just, ick.
i'm also really dreading packing, because... i hate packing. it's so tedious. why can't i do magic? i want to just POOF and everything i own reappears in my new place.
sigh.
so we move friday, saturday, sunday. i promise pictures.

i also bought a big widescreen hd ready tv.

sigh!

i had a dream last night...

2005-09-30T20:57:06Z

and it fit me like a glove...

in my dream, i had just attended the funeral of my old friend's mother, when patreesha showed up. for some reason, i offered to anoint her body with oil, and she said yes, so i rubbed oil on all theparts of her skin that were showing (around her straps, on her collarbone, feet, arms, nowhere indecent.) it was gentle, but not sexual per se. and at the same time, she was flaming me online for being a lesbian. after she got up and left, i sat talkign to my former friend about her mother, and how life was for her, when we were interrupted by a samurai race. immediately, i knew one of the samurai to be off-limits, even though i wanted him badly. and i knew he wanted me, too. but because of his honor, he wouldn't act on it. and a very available, attractive samurai who wanted me, but i didn't care for. so, of course, i let the attractive, available samurai kiss me while the honorable one is watching. he ends up losing the race because of me, and, as punishment for distracting him, i am sentenced to being strapped to a chair and kissed by the honorable samurai. but, i have to pretend not to like it.

what the fuck, seriously?!

p.s. we got approved for our financing. we should sign papers next week. yay!

teh condo.

2005-09-26T19:12:14Z

okay. the listing has been taken down. i have my escrow papers (SO CONFUSING!), the title has been sent to the underwriter, and the appraisal is happening. i went to the inspection, and the structural engineer was liek "wow! *impressed!*". and there are only minor repairs needed, for which we are getting $500 at closing. and i'm weirded out. i'm going to be living in edmonds, and owning a condo. a spacious, well-built condo. a townhouse.

i get to decorate it. lots.

idunno what to do!

so, i've been making registries. restoration hardware, crate and barrel, pottery barn (search for lexine pishue), and anthropologie

i am an EXPENSIVE bitch.

creative influx

2005-09-19T22:41:56Z

creatively, i've been pretty dead for a year or so. around this time last year we were gearing up to release our first product at work, i was happily ensconced in a new relationship frilled with hospital stays and neurotic mothers/evil fathers, and way too busy to even cry.

over the past twelve months, my company has released its product, tim's cancer has remissed, two of my friends have gotten married and now two more are engaged, i got a dog who is now 100lbs, and i've had a grand total of 35 minutes to myself :P. creativity schmeativity.

however, strangely enough, through working a shit-ton and buying a house, i am feeling more introspective and creative. also, i'm trying to inprove my vocabulary! also, aslo!

in the spirit of livejournal, here is an update.

tim is great. he's still as funny and smart and caring and engaging as always. this whole buying a house thing has pulled us out of our months-long moratorium of "going out of the house". we've been up in north seattle a lot lately. it's been wonderful. halo parties up in everett, the driving range at elliott, movies, friends. it's done a lot for my soul. i couldn't be happier or more proud of going through what i went through on my way to find tim. single life was great. i had a wonderful time screwing around and getting hurt... man, that sounds bad. i guess what i mean is that i learned a lot about what i don't want. and now i'm learning a lot about what i do.

i'm going to miss hope a lot when i move out. she's kindof my sounding board right now. i used to hate asking people for opinions because most of the time i didn't like them (the opinions, not the people.) and now, it's not so bad. she gets me. it's definitely a different relationship than any i've ever had. it helps to know what she thinks about things because she has this great knowledge base and self-esteem, without being over-assuming or full of herself. it's always exciting when she's around, because there's always a million things going on with her. so even on "chill" days, its a mile a minute. plus, she just loves.

i miss kelly terribly. we don't get a chance to talk a lot, so that means we never run out of things to say when we DO talk. but i want to hear about them as they happen. i have this odd fear that the people down there aren't the best of influences, but... she has to do these things to learn from them. it smacks of me, four years ago. i had to KNOW why you couldn't bring dudes home from bars, i had to KNOW why you couldn't date two guys who work together. i also fear that she thinks i'm not the best place to go for advice because i'm in seattle, and i don't know the people she's talking about... but you can tell a lot about people by the way others talk about their experiences with them. i know she knows what she's doing, but i badly want her to be home, so i can, too. she's talking about moving back to seattle next year... i hope this isn't like the last time, and she makes some progress. i don't want to lose her to the south.

work is a little bit annoying. i'm asking for a raise, and so far i haven't heard anything about it. i suppose my boss has to go through the ceo to do it, and that may take time, but... i'm just feeling underappreciated again. i get some recognition from my boss, but it'd be nicer if it were monetary. plus, i'm buying a house, and if i don't have to eat top ramen, i'm not going to. plus, it seems i go (up to three) years without mention of a raise. that ain't cool.

and the townhouse. buying the house is going very odd. we found out that our condo association isn't on teh FHA list, but all that means is we have to do a spot-loan, which my mortgage guy hasn't done in years, and my real-estate lady says she's done a million times. hopefully that all goes through, or else we have to go with a higher interest loan. :X :X :X scary! but i have faith. if it wasn't meant to be, we wouldn't have gotten this far. we won our bid because we were nice, courteous cute people, so i just hope we can win our loan through hard work and competent businesspeople (which we have an abundance of).

allright ladies and gentlemen, peace out.

i am buying a townhouse

2005-09-13T06:59:37Z

and there's NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT!!!

except to look at it

to be honest, $205k for 1600 sq feet in Edmonds (20 minutes north of seattle) - is probably the best thing we could have hoped for.

I am SO FUCKING EXCITED.

list of houses!

2005-09-09T22:06:31Z

let me know what you think!!!

i am a freak who never updates her livejournal.

2005-09-06T19:12:01Z

i'm so so sorry! you know my excuses already (work, video games, loan meetings, etc.) so i'm not going to do all that shit. instead, i'm going to ask you to be VERY EXCITED FOR ME.

for those of you not informed...

tim and i got approved for a $235,000 loan (which, in seattle terms means "move up north, you fucking poor bastard"), but, i have a cousin who's a totally sweet real-estate agent and put us together a list of condos in our price range (mostly) nearer to seattle than the houses we were looking at.

i'm not so sure about the condo thing though. 100+ lb dog? he's nearly an inside dog, but i don't want to push it.

still... one of those condos has a 2-story solarium... and it's 1600 sq ft. holy crap. that's bigger than most of the houses we were looking at.

so, does anybody have any views on condos vs houses?

lexir0x @ 2005-08-16T09:18:00

2005-08-16T17:20:05Z

1) if you were to legally change your name, what would you choose?
Something along the lines of "Artemis" or "Hestia", "Ariadne" or something old and greek like that.

2) what mundane task do you wish you could eliminate from your life?
dusting. i hate dusting.

3) what makes you laugh?
when someone leaves their lights on, and i think of the note i've always wanted to leave someone on their car... "You left your lights on!"

4) would you rather be too hot or too cold?
too cold, because when you get warm after being way too cold it's such a wonderful feeling.

5) which do you identify with more, cops or robbers?
bystanders. there's too much gray area to be either cop or robber.

6) where are we likely to find you at 10pm on a friday?
playing video games with tim and hope.

7) what fear do you have that most people wouldn't understand?
i think most people would understand my fears... self-worth, weight, love, rape...

8) what is your favorite combination of pizza toppings?
garlic, artichoke, and chicken

9) which fake accent do you wish you could perfect?
any. i'm terrible at accents!

10) if you had to listen to one CD for the rest of your life, what would it be?
an mp3 cd of most of my music :X dont' ask me to choose that shit!

11) drums or bass?
guitar

12) would you rather start or finish a project?
what type of project? it's totally subjective. painting, i'd rather finish, because i love painting. making my own cello, i'd rather start because i know i'll never finish. web project, i'd rather finish. start cleaning, because that's NEVER finished.

13) how many times have you been pulled over by a cop?
too many times. cops hate me :(

14) how many bones have you broken?
i've fractured my arm and broken my ankle, so idunno. like, twenty?

15) if you were taken to jail, who would you make your one phone call to?
tim. definitely tim. the only person who'd just bail me out and take me home and do me to make me feel better.

16) what is waiting for you in your own personal hell?
ben. it's just ben and all of my one night stands/fake boyfriends i used for sex.

17) paper or plastic?
whatever you want to throw it in.

18) what is your favorite ice cream flavor?
baskin robbin's love potion #9 (i think it's 9. it may be 12 or 73)

19) what type of milk do you drink? (skim, 2%, chocolate, etc.)
nonfat, if i must.

20) what is the most annoying habit a person can have?
emotional vomitting. that's when someone regurgitates all of their emotions onto your clothes and in yoru hair and on your new shoes, and makes you feel covered in bile, but you can't just punch them because they're so pathetic you're pretty sure they don't even deserve to live.

i'm not lj-cutting this.

2005-06-30T17:16:32Z

awesome

2005-06-07T16:57:40Z

01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.

lexir0x @ 2005-06-03T18:53:00

2005-06-04T01:50:29Z

all comments are screened. 'fess up, bitches.

1. Tell me something obvious about you.
2. Tell me something about you that many don't know.
3. What is your biggest fear?
4. Do you normally go the safe route or take the short cut?
5. Name one thing you want that you can't buy with money.
6. What is your most treasured possession?
7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do often?
8. Tell me something sexually about you that I don't know.
9. Tell me something sexually about you that everyone knows.
10. What is your favorite lie to tell?
11. Name something you've done once that you can't wait to do again.
12. Are you the jealous type?
13. What is the one person, place or thing you can't say no to?
14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?
15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?
16. When was the last time you cried?
17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?
18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?
19. Name something embarrassing you did while being drunk.
20. If you post this in your journal would you like me to answer it?

new hair.

2005-06-02T15:21:17Z

damn.

buy a house?

2005-04-14T20:44:20Z

okay. this is a really exciting period in my life.

i'm gearing up to buy a house.

now, as of this week, my credit is like, two points away from "fair" (normal). in the next six-to-ten months, i need to make a plan to clean up a bad bit of credit, to get tim a good job, draw up a contract between he and i, and get a loan.

hope and sean are getting married next march, i think. so i want to be into a house, i figure... maybe next january-february. yeah, moving during the winter SUCKS, but... if it'll get me a house, i'll do just about anything. i didn't realize i wanted it so bad until just recently. i started looking into living in the everett/mukilteo area, and i'm nearly quivering, i'm so excited.

i finally realized i'm in a good place to buy a house. i have a good job, i've been here for five years, i'm with the man i'm going to marry, i'm having some of the best ideas of my life, and i want to get started. buying property is NEVER a bad idea. it's the only truly smart investment. so... i want to do it. plus, looking at property... tim and i together could probably get a pretty good loan. i mean, shit, my friends got an almost $200k loan when she was unemployed. i can afford to pay half of a $1200/month mortgage payment, for a good house.

so, look at these and tell me what you think?

asdf!

lexir0x @ 2005-03-28T10:58:00

2005-03-28T20:38:18Z

1 hey baby, what's your sign? aquarius. yeah, i'm awesome.

2 what's one thing you're especially proud of? the progress i've made in my company. i never thought i'd be so corporate friendly, but i'm really proud of all that i've learned over the past five years, and that i've seen this project from infancy to completion.

3 when you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? a canadian mountie. there was something about living in a forest with my horse that really appealed to me. i probably just watched too many jim henson movies.

4 what did you dream about last night? something about tony soprano trying to have sex with women in this theme-park / university campus, and killing pretensious graduate school boys.

5 what's something you can't live without? meat. i tried the vegetarian thing... but fuck that.

6 do you talk to yourself? not so much, no.

7 what's your earliest memory? sliding down the steps in the apartment in ballard on my back. little did i know the bruises on my spine would lead to a very uncomfortable q-and-a at the hospital later.

8 what's your favorite smell? escada's ibiza hippie.

9 who are you closest to in your family? my mother. i know way too much about her, and i'm sure she feels the same about me.

10 what foods do you hate? um... none? i'm a fan of the foods. i'd probably have to say black licorice though.

11 what's one thing you will never understand? intolerance. it blows my mind that people would judge, SERIOUSLY judge, not based on personal merits, but on traits people have no control over.

12 what words or phrases do you use too much? whore/hooker. i spent all this weekend calling a video game's ending fight sequence a whore, and on easter, i called tim's stepmonster a whore in front of his mother. that is when i knew i had a problem.

13 what are you listening to right now? the cranberries

14 do you have any phobias? walking in downtown after dark. i usually have my keys wedged in my knuckles incase i have to punch someone in the throat

15 can you dance? not so well anymore. remember when you used to dance with your friends after school, like, on fridays before spring break started? after highschool, i never really went to clubs.. it's kindof a use-it-or-lose-it thing.

16 are you an introvert or extravert? extravert.

17 what's in your pockets? leprechauns.

18 when was the last time you told a lie? when i told you i had leprechauns in my pocket.

19 what's your favorite color? green.

20 what do you do to relax? drink coffee and read fashion magazines.

21 what's something that has changed your life? it's cliche, but love has. the realization that all those neuroses, like "i could never have a child and a man in my life. it's one or the other" or "marriage is stupid" aren't necessarily true, is pretty earth shattering.

22 what inspires you? art and nature.

23 are you a morning or night person? night, i suppose.

24 what's something you regret? not screaming at my dad more when i was a kid. not getting into therapy earlier.

25 what's your favorite place on earth? monument valley (an indian reservation on the northern border of arizona)

26 do you think you're a good influence or bad influence on people? good, i hope.

27 what instruments do you play? the cello, the guitar, and the organ. and the skin flute.

28 what's your favorite tv show? ugh, EVER? probably Sex and the City, because it influenced me deeply.

29 what ethnicities are you? 29% greek, 14% polish, and .01% everything else.

30 what's something you can't resist? coffee.

31 how many email addresses do you have? only two, anymore. thank god. one for work and one for home

32 how old were you when you lost your virginity? 17

33 have you ever been arrested? i've been arrested by a nice pair of eyes. conversations. not by the police.

34 what's your dream job? probably personal shopper, or interior decorator.

35 what nicknames do people call you? lexi, lextastic, fag, "the one who will shup it"

36 do you prefer city or country? the city. the country is for camping.

37 what's your worst habit? tearing tim's toenails. (HEY THAT IS ALLITERATIVE)

38 what do you collect? dust, i suppose. leprechauns. jokes.

39 do you feel older or younger than you are? older, i suppose

40 what magazines do you read? vogue mostly. jane, if i feel like laughing. national geographic if it looks interesting

41 who's the last person you talked to on the phone? i hate the phone. i think the last person i talked to was rick.

42 name one of your heros. probably storm from the x-men. or dr drew

43 what do you want for your birthday? a trip somewhere relaxing.

44 what do you like most about your body? my hair, or my tits. depending on what you consider my body as

45 what do you like least? my thighs.

46 are you organized or disorganized? disorganized

47 are you religious? i am. wow, that was easy

48 are you more dominant or submissive in bed? more dominant

49 what's your hometown? seattle, wa

50 are you better at saving or spending money? spending :P i have no concept of savings.

51 when was the last time you felt truly happy? a while before the crunch at work started, where i could work 8 hour days, and go home to my boy and my dog, and dinner, and hang out.

52 what's your favorite movie? chasing amy. hands down.

53 who's your favorite amish guy? Amos. MAN that guy is funny.

54 giver or taker? giver.

55 do you speak any other languages? i took six years of french, but i wouldn't count on me as a translator. i am fluent in ig-pay atin-lay and jibba-jabba/jive talkin'.

56 what was the last book you read? the last book i read and finished... i want to say it was the harry potter series, but i know i read something after that. i tried reading lolita, but it got REALLY tedious. right now i'm reading the red tent.

57 do you drink? yes, socially

58 what's your favorite position? woman on top. i don't see the allure of pretzel-sex. most of the positions don't have any clitoral stimulation, and THAT is fucked.

59 do you believe in astrology? marginally. it's a great party favor.

60 who's your oldest friend? kelly <3

61 do you snore? apparently, no. but i can never tell for sure, because boyfriends/boy toys are unreliable sources.

62 lover or fighter? lover. i'm so anti-confrontation.

63 are you a good cook? yes. my next big challenge is making lamb shanks with prunes and honey. i'm soooo stoked.

64 what's one thing you miss from your childhood? school. it's so lame, but school was great.

65 what should jenni [info]f_o_n_y have for dinner? sushi, or lamb. or, if possible, both.

66 what's the nicest thing anyone's ever said about you? "you know, if you died, i wouldn't feel bad for you, or me. i'd feel bad for all those people who never got to meet you."

67 are you good at keeping secrets? why, what do you have to tell me?

68 what are your favorite websites? online comics, and the daily show website.

69 what's something you do better than most people? javascript, i suppose.

70 what do you wear to bed? underwear. i hate being tangled in clothes.

71 time or money? time. with time you can make money, and then there you go!

72 what's one thing hardly anyone knows about you? that i'm consumed with my appearance a lot more than i let on to be, probably.

73 what was your best subject in school? orchestra, i guess? math and english were strong, too.

74 are you in love? why, yes.

75 do you pay attention to fashion? RABIDLY. i once asked my hairdresser why i was so obsessed with fashion, and she looked at me like "DUH" and said "Because you love impossible-looking, beautiful things."

76 what's the first thing you do when you get up in the morning? kiss tim

77 what's the last thing you do before bed? ... kiss tim....

78 do you like to gamble? i do, but only when i have money to blow. craps is SO addictive.

79 do you believe in the supernatural? within reason

80 name three favorite bands. weezer, death cab for cutie, violent femmes

81 are you a jealous person? not so much. i hate the thought that i don't get to spend as much time with my friends who live far away, but that's life.

82 what pets do you have? griff :) he's all the pet i need.

83 what's something that scares you? rape

84 do you keep a diary? you're lookin' at it.

85 turnons? afternoon sex

86 turnoffs? asking for kiss/sex. guh, i hate that.

87 how tall are you? 5'3

88 name one thing you really want to do and haven't yet. travel outside of north america.

89 do you smoke? not really, no

90 when did you start using the interweb? oh god.

91 who's the most famous person you've met? i don't care for famous people

92 do you have any addictions? caffine, fashion, video games

93 what's your favorite sport? to watch? hockey. to play? ... sex?

94 boxers or briefs? boxer briefs!

95 if you could be anywhere right now, where would you be? in a restaurant with all of my best friends

96 what's the worst job you ever had? the coffee shack :X i love corrin and cate, but they wanted me to work 14 hours... that wasn't goign to happen.

97 how many kids are in your family? probably 2 now.

98 what car do you drive? 2000 mercury mystique, SPORT

99 how long did it take you to answer these? ugh, too long!

100 what did you think of my questions? they were HUZZAH

talk about irony

2005-03-25T23:40:52Z

terry schiavo case spurs hunger strike

i wonder how many of these people are aware that her heart attack, that deprived oxygen to her brain, was caused by her bulimia?

OTHER ironies being highlighted by this circus:

the religious right is all about the right to live (ie no assisted suicide, abortions, etc), except for their support of the death penalty.

the republicans of today want to protect the sanctity of marriage, except a spouse/legal guardian respecting the wishes of their spouse not to be kept alive artificially.

the republicans focus on the family, sending their children in to the hospice to be arrested

not to MENTION that had any of those people gotten through to her with water or food, she would have suffocated because she cannot swallow.

the republican value of less government intrusion into people's private lives, trying to reach over the judicial branch's head by passing laws in congress.

i have to state for the record: i couldn't really care less about the schiavo/schindlers as people. i don't know them - and i don't want to know them. this isn't even REALLY about them. it's mostly about the republican party trying to save face in the light of Tom DeLay's ethics violations, the President fumbling the Social Security ball, rising gas prices, the two year anniversary of the occupation of iraq, and the state of our union being generally fucked up.

listen: i know what it's like to have a loved family member in a hospice. where there is no way to make them better. when someone is dying, and they are comatose, and they respond, not consciously, but reactionally, to your voice, your touch, your presence. it's part of the human condition. this kind of shit happens to people every day. it's tragic. death with dignity, or a life in a bed with a tube down your throat... that's a personal choice. it's none of our business what goes on in the homes of others. this whole situation is a ploy to keep your mind away from where it should be. what scares me is that a lot of congress went along with this bullshit, and tried to wrest the most important part of our government away from us - our system of checks and balances. and all of this is based on a highly charged emotional issue, which is what people respond to. luckily, they haven't responded as well as some i'm sure wanted them to.

this whole thing is a train wreck.

welcome to the circus!